i cant even cry anymore

life sucks, and caring about stuff is harder than ever. My mom just said, that I never show any emotion. My face goes blank, my eyes stare into nothing and my jaw gets stiff.
guess that's my way of dealing with shit.

I have the best of friends

I'm having trouble at home, or actually, not me but my parents. Hence, I try to spend as little time as possible there. And that would hardly be possible without my lovely friends. I just hope that I'll be able to be there for them when they need me, like the way I need them now. Thanks, even though I know you don't read this.

hey

Just wanted to share this video. This boy is an Australian Youtuber and I've been subscribed to him since forever, and today he posted a video where he came out as gay (online, his friends knew that already :) )

People like him inspire me the heck out of me, and I'm really proud of him and happy for him :) Click HERE to see the video!!

well well, has it or has it not been a while?

The summer's nearly over. Oops. It has been the best summer of my life.

I've grown up.

I've lived on my own for the past two months, and it has been like the answer to my prayers. Love this.

I've actually been a bit more active in my other blog but it's for slightly different things. I like to keep this blog on a mental level, and not write here about things i do physically in my everyday life.

There's a boy. I've been crazy for him probably since the first of June. That's the day after the day that I met him. If not since that day, then since the twenty first of June. That's when a funny, unexpected thing happened with him. Too bad I was too shy to open my mouth, until two weeks from that. That's when he told me that there's a girl he might start going out with. That sucks. But I just kept pretending that I only liked him as a friend and we were quite cool about it. Then he moved into my house. Because we work in a same place, it's a bit complicated. But yeah, right now the situation is basically, that I'm irrevocably, hopelessly crazy about a boy who I live together with, who I share a damn bathroom with, who is my only friend in this country... And he's got someone else. And I'm going back to Finland in two days.

It ain't easy.

Bye

this sucks buttholes

Ever wonder how when everything's finally ok and you're happy, something'll always come and destroy everything? That leaves you with nothing.

That's exactly what I have right now. Nothing at all.

At least there's the Eurovision. Ding dong.

I'm so lucky

...and I'm not allowed to tell anyone why (yet)

that sucks.

But like a wise old man once said, keep calm and walk to the fridge.

 

 

more thoughts. Thank you internet

The early bird might get the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese.

My mother never realized the irony of calling me son-of-a-bitch.

Sex is not the answer. Sex is the question. Yes is the answer!

Fighting for peace is like fucking for virginity.